thursday.

Jun. 27th, 2024 08:43 pm
sunfright: Cover design for "Lest They Leave" by Michael Sinadjan. (lest they leave)




Warmest day of the year today in Denmark, all-around temperature about 30 degrees Celsius which is a lot for us.

I've spent most of the day in a frenzy, because five days ago, I ordered a small batch of my book, Lest They Leave for print with a local printing company. I've never had to get anything I wrote printed in book-format before, the closest I got was the anthology a friend and I wrote a handful of years back, but she was in charge of all the practical stuff about it, so I only got the sweet feeling of having a book shoved into my hand with my name on it, once it was all in the clear.

This time, the whole process has been my own alone. The writing, the editing, getting a cover made (though I got amazing help from a friend's brother who does this for a living) and now, ordering a batch of it printed. Only a small batch, mind, I'll get fifteen finished books and 1 proof out of it. It was expensive as all Hell, too, and ever since placing my order, I have harboured a nagging anxiety that I've made some mistake and something's bound to be wrong with the layout or design when it gets here, but. But I will be getting something and it will be mine and as my gf says. If it's completely horrible, we'll order another batch, knowing what not to do next time.

Writing this book has been such an experience. Is there anything I wish I could've done differently? Quite a lot of things, actually, and maybe one day in the future, I'll look over this and put some love and effort into a rewrite, but for now this is where I'm at with my progress as a writer. This is the best I can do right now and I'm damn proud of it! Besides the story itself, which is endlessly dear to my heart now, Lest They Leave has taught me so many things about my own working methods, my weaknesses, strengths and everything in between. I think I'll move forward from here so much wiser and with so much more experience as a writer.

And I think good things are waiting ahead.

Besides the proof that I can hopefully pick up at the post office tomorrow! That is what has kept me in a frenzy all day. The printing company texted me at 11 am and told me they'd shipped off my order (meaning just the proof, I think and hope), but then I haven't been able to track the package all day, until just a moment ago when it showed up as on its way to "depot" which I guess is for further distribution. I've never used GLS before. Anyway, I've had no rest since. And now I'm supposed to sleep in this weather before being able to see what the printing guys made of my fumbling explanations and requests... I predict insomnia tonight.

The fifteen copies are all, give or take, promised to people in my immediate circles. I think I have three or four left when everybody I've promised a copy has gotten theirs. Which is fine, I didn't do this to sell books. I just wanted to share my little story with the people who matter to me. Once I have the whole batch, I'm planning on posting the whole novel to AO3 for free reading to those of you who might have an interest in seeing what all my fuss is about. I'll probably post it chapter by chapter (there are 13 chapters all in all) over summer. Look forward to it!

For now, I got an icon with the cover art. I am waiting for my books to get here. I am working on little extra "fics" to slip into the back of each of the 15 copies. And I have a whole playlist, should anyone feel like getting in the mood for reading.

I don't think I've been more ready and more nervous for anything in my life.


thursday.

Apr. 25th, 2024 05:55 pm
sunfright: Alexander Bozinoff as Armand in The Lady of the Camellias. (noctuary)




I signed up for "Unconventional Courtship" a fic challenge where you have to write a fic based on a romance novel (Harlequin-style) summary and I picked one and I've written a fic and I am in a good mood.

Seeing as I have returned to CMBYN hard, my pairing in this fic is Michel/Elio (because they're my favourite), and the (altered) summary I've picked sounds like this:

A gorgeous Frenchman – with a proposal…

Michel is startled to discover that the tenant of his Senlis residence, Elio Perlman, is young, curly-haired and sensational! There is an immediate attraction between them, but despite his family’s premature plans to arrange the wedding of the year, Elio holds back, unable to let go of his past.

But the more time Michel spends with Elio, he sees that beneath his reserved façade there lies a broken heart and painful memories… Michel is determined to be the one man who can make him whole again…


I've written a 3k long fic inspired by this prompt and my posting date is June 4th. I could really use a beta, people! If anyone here is feeling up to giving me some feedback on this 3500 word long fic which is very gen/maaaaybe pg-13 and mostly just two people talking, I would be very, very happy. I'm also going to put an ad up over at [community profile] betaplease. I personally don't think you need to be canon-familiar since this is a what if-AU anyway, but always happy to have a beta who has read the books, too.

I made a manip for my pairing with the template available over at [community profile] unconventionalcourtship and am insanely happy with the result. Although I prefer the books to the movie, Chalamet will always to some degree be my ideal Elio while I've used Gary Cole as PB for Michel, because reasons.



I've ordered both CMBYN and Find Me in hardback, because now I'm apparenetly a collector. I've also ordered Aciman's newest release, The Gentleman from Peru, which came out a few weeks ago, so I have a whole Aciman collection. I feel obsessed, but it's just so lovely being inspired by something again...


thursday.

Feb. 29th, 2024 03:51 pm
sunfright: Susanne Grinder (RDB) as Marguerite Gautier in a promotional photoshoot. (camellia)




Because I survived therapy and didn't die today, I share with you... my favourite ballet of all time.

Yes, it even overtakes The Lady of the Camellias. Imagine that.



The most hypnotic, fascinating, complete experience I've ever seen put on a stage. How I wish I could've gone to Paris to see it when they staged it again last year!


thursday.

Feb. 15th, 2024 08:51 am
sunfright: Logan Marshall-Green with the text  "fuck". (charleston)








Now that I have your attention, let's talk about my new writing project! I thought I was done with the 1920's, being mostly done with Lest They Leave, but turns out that was all one big lie! I just needed a different angle on it. No more France. No more "Roaring" Twenties or Silly Years. Welcome to the mostly depressive, bleak landscape that is Denmark in the inter-war years, both the 20's and the 30's.

Denmark in the 20's was marked by a big political unrest, record-high unemployment, distrust towards the state of the world and revolt against old norms, as well as the financial crises and crashes that were part of everyday life in these years after the great losses suffered in WWI. While some tendencies were introduced from the US (first car factory opened in 1924, jazz became a big part of the Danish music scene) and mass production made it easier and cheaper to buy clothes that followed trends from Paris, mostly the 20's in Denmark are remembered as the decade where we ate a lot of porridge, because that was all we could afford. Kind of grey, kind of dreary. We didn't roar much.

Well, the scene in my new story is set in 1925, cars are beginning to be a more normalized sight in the streets, there's just been a round of elections that put the first Social-Democratic state minister in position, though he won't last long. Women have begun joining the workforce, though mainly in factories and in housekeeping. This is the world my main character, Anna, is living in. Despite the general sexism of the era, she has managed to finish an apprenticeship in photography and is working as an assistent in her family friend, Jacob Bjerre's studio in inner Aarhus, though she dreams of getting her own studio and rise above the rank of "assistent". Among the locals, she's somewhat of a curiosity, being a woman in this field, and even more so since she's 30 and still unmarried. While some suspect, no one has confirmed that she's actually a lesbian with a wide trail of former dalliances behind her, unable to create the conditions for a lasting relationship.

All this changes, when the Academy for the Fine Arts in Copenhagen announce a photo competition where a twenty photo long series can earn you a prize of 20,000 kroner. Anna figures that if she could win that prize, she could finally open her own studio across town. However, she can't decide on a subject for her series and is almost too late to finish her contribution, when she one day meets the upper-class Garçonne girl, Lilly, who immediately inspires her and she uninvited approaches her on the street and asks whether she can photograph her. Lilly, who just breezes through life, refusing to care about much, is intrigued by the idea and accepts, refusing any compensation or contracts for it.

The next month, they spend a lot of time at night in Bjerre's studio, taking pictures and getting to know each other and if you haven't guesses where this leads, you don't know me at all. Yadda yadda, they fall in love, Lilly begins introducing Anna to her upper-class world that Anna portrays through her lens as part of her series. The plan is that I want these two to have a happy ending, even if I don't think Anna wins the competition. How exactly their happy ending will come about, I don't know yet.

We'll see. Lots of options!



I've amassed a small stack of books on the 1920's, in the US, France and in Denmark that I plan to begin reading over the next week. I have the classics, an introduction to Fitzgerald and the Jazz Age + The Great Gatsby which I will read parts of, it's of course a very American portrait of the 20's which doesn't fit the Danish situation, but I do imagine the upper-classes in Denmark probably had a more similar experience to that than the working and middle-classes did. Two books relating to Paris in the 20's, one being Hemingway's memoir, A Moveable Feast and the other an essay collection with writings from American expats living in Paris in that decade, with a focus on the food they ate! Very exciting! Finally, I have a book on Copenhagen in the 20's which is relatively new and a collection of short stories from magazines by period-relevant writer, Hans Kirk, where at least a handful are from the 1920's which should give me a feeling for the language, the dialogue and the mood of Denmark in those days. All in all, very exciting. I feel like my research game is strong right now.



And to end this entry on a just as strong note as it began, have another video!




thursday.

Feb. 8th, 2024 10:23 am
sunfright: Susanne Grinder and J'aime Crandall as Marguerite and Manon in The Lady of the Camellias. (manonique)




Just a brief note to announce that

The Year of the Wolf

has finally been updated with the February poems!



Hope to get back on track with uploading the remaining 10 months during February and March. Kinda went on a writing detour/hiatus kinda thingy there for a while, writing new stuff rather than caring about what I'd already finished.

But I still love this collection and I look forward to sharing it with you all!


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