monday.

The weather is beautiful today, a true bout of early spring sunshine. If I have no other ambitions for the day, going out for a walk might be the one thing. The one good thing I do for myself.

The one good thing besides all the tea that I'm drinking, because although it's sunny, it's also terribly chilly still. The floors are cold beneath my feet. By the windows, you can feel the cold beating in on you.

I got a decent head start on my Omina project yesterday, managing to write a prose poem for each day in the first week of January. I'm hoping to manage somewhat of the same today. The writing style comes easily to me and there's not much plot to keep track of, so I should be good, even if I'm tired and PMS'ing a bit.

I've made a playlist for this writing project that currently features some Two Steps From Hell, Gang of Youths (Achielles Come Down), Klergy ft. Valerie Broussard (Start A War) and Bastille (Pompeii), among others. I'm very reliant on listening to the right music when I write, and I can't write without any background noise at all, but this is one of the more relaxing playlists I've had in a while. I think it's the overall mood. Nothing too upbeat. It's very soothing.

Once I've had my pills, I'm going to go over what I wrote yesterday, just a quick round of editing, and then I'll probably work on the next leg from midday onwards with a walk thrown somewhere in between.

I must say, it's an interesting process, taking a poetry collection that's written in free verse and mostly resembles Sappho's fragments in style, translating that feeling and terminology to prose. It highlights very different parts of the universe within the poems, whether it's expanded upon in free verse or prose form. I can't replicate the hard-edged beauty of Aidt's and Moestrup's original completely in prose, but instead I get to create my completely own format that can do something else entirely. It's fascinating. I'm really enjoying it.

Meanwhile, I'm making preparations for another Be the First project (and also, Fannish Fifty-relevant), in case I end up not being able to finish this Omina thing in time (yes, despite everything, I'm generally a realist). We're talking a vignette about the character Giovanina from the Bournonville/Hübbe ballet, Napoli from 2009. I always figured I'd end up writing about something Bournonville first for Fannish Fifty, just thought it'd be La Sylphide... But La Sylphide already has fic on AO3, whereas Napoli does not, so I thought I'd give my Napoli girls a spin.

It does help that I've already written "fic" for Napoli in Danish - a couple of years ago, me and a friend self-published an anthology with writings inspired by Napoli and it was an enormous project (the book is between 400 and 500 pages long) and while I wouldn't call it fanfiction as much as original fiction inspired by the aesthetics and location of the ballet, it's definitely got similarities to what I'm working on now.

It means I'm revisiting the ballet (it's been released on DVD, should anyone be interested, it's very entertaining) and although it got some flack by the press in Denmark when it first premiered, I personally think it's one of the best things Hübbe has done as Artistic Director for the Royal Danish. It's beautiful, catchy, engaging and just overall nice to look at. I hope they keep it, once he leaves.

A couple of clips are available from it on YouTube, so I'm going to share. It fits the weather over Denmark today. Bright and cheerful.

Watch on YouTube

Watch on YouTube

Have a bright and sunny one, peeps. If not outside, then in.

monday.

Evening. It's half past ten, I'll be going to bed within the next hour. It's Tuesday tomorrow.

For all the lofty ambitions and plans I had for today, I didn't get as much of it actually done as I'd hoped. I did go for a walk and it was wonderful, really grounding and surprisingly warm! I'd dressed up in scarf and gloves and such, because I thought it would be a cold trip, but halfway through I had to kindly unwrap not to die from the heat.

I got a prose poem written for one (1) day of January in my Omina project and while this isn't as impressive as I'd have liked, I had a spurt of both energy and inspiration this evening where I wrote notes and keywords for every single day in January, hopefully this will make it a bit easier to actually write the poems themselves. Dare I hope I'll get a bunch of poems written tomorrow?

I don't dare hope much at all these days, so I'm not optimistic, but then, at least, I can surprise myself positively.

I'm going to take a break from RP'ing (aside from my Star Wars storyline, still going strong). It's causing me more stress and frustration at the moment than it's giving me joy, so I have to cut it out for a little while. I hope this will give me more energy to focus on my writing projects of various kinds.

I really want to be an active writer again. More than anything, that's what I wanna work towards. On the way there, I want to start using the Danish NaNo Discord server more, because sprinting is a huge help for me in my writing process as well as talking to others about frustrations and successes.

Tomorrow, I hope I can go to the library and write. I've felt shut in in the apartment the past couple of days, so it would be nice going out. Not being afraid all the time. I hate my anxiety.

I'm also very tired and should just go to bed.