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tuesday.
I desperately want to share a scene from my story, but I have this feeling that if I begin reading through it again before I'm done, well, I'll never be done, haha. So, I might simply wait until I reach the end and it's not like I'm close or anything, but I just reached the first big pivotal point in the set-up, so that's exciting. My main character got to kiss her love interest, that was a lovely mess. I'm especially thrilled that there, despite the era, isn't any real revelation of gay panic in the aftermath. She's shaken by the experience, because it's new, but she isn't denying her feelings or trying to suppress them. She very openly indulges them, it's only complicated because she has a future fiancé and her love interest also happens to be her brother's girl, so. That. Yeah.
Luckily, future fiancé is also queer, not that she knows that, and they're gonna have the most amazing lavender marriage when this entire fucking plot has run its course. He'll make sure of that, because he's a good guy.
The plan for her brother is that he'll finally be able to express to her that everything he does, he does for her sake, to ensure her happiness - doesn't make his actions less controlling and selfish, but at least he has good intentions that he just fails at most of the time. So far, he's one of my favourite characters to write, besides main girl herself. She's a fucking delight.
My playlist for writing is currently only consisting of this one Charleston vintage song collection, but it's a slammer, so I'm sharing it here, although it comes with the blanket warnings for the usual historical music stuff from that time, blatant sexism, stereotypes, period-typical views of gender, etc. - plus most of these artists are white, whereas the origins of the musical style are firmly rooted in the Black community and in Black history. All that, but man, it still bangs.
There's another playlist I listen to as well, but it's not as upbeat and for some reason, my typing speed adjusts to the music I listen to, LOL, almost like my fingers are dancing so at the moment, I prefer the faster, upbeat playlist, because I am apparently trying to break 40k before November is out.
I have no honest clue how long this story will end up being. I'm at 30k already, and I feel I might be little under halfway? So mid 50k, 60k? Something like that. Anyway, I suspect, when it's done, it'll be the longest story I've ever written and especially in a 'non-poetic' style (let's be real, my style is always somewhat poetic, but where the poetry isn't the point). It's not even difficult, because I absolutely love all the characters in this story, down to the minor side characters. I just love the whole gallery.
And I especially love how I don't question myself while writing this. It's such a free, liberating process. Loving it.
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