sunfright | tuesday.

I was sick yesterday and judging from the (mild) headache and general not-greatness I woke up with an hour ago, that is gonna continue today. K. has been sick since Saturday, so it might be expected - and at least I haven't had to deal with her levels of coughing, my lungs seem to have been the only part of me actually doing okay? But still.

I had to cancel therapy today which might lighten up my week in terms of spoons, sure, a week that is gonna end in the summer house trip with my parents, but is never a good thing. Especially since my therapist will be on vacation all of October, so. No therapy for a month. Sigh.

But needs must, can't run around in the general public and get everyone else sick, too.

K. said she's stay home today the parts of the day when she isn't in meetings, so I think she's beginning to feel better, although a little coughing seems to prevail. I'll just be relaxing all day, probably roleplaying some and maybe, maybe try writing.

Little more than a year ago, last summer, I wrote a(n original) fic that should prove to be my gentle push into writing longer stories, after having written mostly flash fiction and short stories for years. It was 30 pages long which, at the time, was a huge amount of pages for me to write and even today, I'm very fond of this little fic.

that names punish.

I remember I mostly wrote it to work out some aspects of my own relationship to my father and to put it roughly, it's the story of a woman's relationship to the two most important male figures in her life, her father - a former prime minister - and her boss - the future prime minister. Are there things I would have written differently, had I written this story today? Yes. Definitely. But it is a nostalgic proof of where I was, then, and how much my writing has grown.

I also really like both Marie-Clarisse (MC) and Étienne Muller (her boss) as characters, having RP'ed them both, though at the moment I'm fond enough of Ètienne with all his flaws to even consider maybe writing a sequel to this fic from his PoV in which we follow his and Marie-Clarisse's relationship after the end of that names punish.

Might do that. Or might stick just to RP'ing him.

Whenever I write from that universe, I end up listening to Namika. I don't really know why, her music doesn't really fit any of the characters, vibe-wise, but the sound of German, the very happy pop-hiphop-ish beat and maybe her rather crisp voice somehow still gives me That Feeling. Tonight it's Liebe Ist..., a duet with French singer, Zaz, that I adore, as well as the always addictive Je Ne Parle Pas Francais, duet with French rapper, Black M, an also much adored song, but I like a lot of her music. Kompliziert has a fun music video. Phantom is catchy, too. Lieblingsmensch is the loveliest, coziest song I've heard, just to finish up strong. Namika can do a lot of different things which is maybe why I return to her, she covers a lot of different "feels".

Anyway, this entry is mostly to say: I'm glad that fic came into life. I'm glad it taught me that I can continue a piece, even if not writing it in one sitting and that, like nothing else, has really made my writing soar, even as I continue to learn. I like to look back at the beginning, where it all started.

And this is it.