thursday.

When did I last post? goes to check More than a week ago, okay. Things have happened.

I had the birthday for my friend coming up Saturday and survived. I won't say triumphed, because anything you're so stressed for that you're actually physically sick for more than a day after doesn't feel like a triumph, but I was at the party with people I don't know, I didn't die and my friend had a good time. That's the important thing. Also, her idea of making it a craft/DIY event was really good! The shared third element of everyone working on their own thing, able to chat about that, really helped. I made a Lady of the Camellias themed collage that I might show off later, since I'm very satisfied with it!



Just in general, January has been tough, and pretty much everything I had planned to do has failed to be done. I wanted to reread my Napoli fanfic, but have been stalling on it in favour of running beta corrections on Lest They Leave, my 1920's novel, instead. I have a beta job waiting to be done, myself, for a friend online and only a week left to do it, so I really need to get myself together. However, everything has kinda grinded to a halt. Twice has my social worker visits gotten cancelled due to snow over the past three weeks. I feel out of the loop with everything, and have literally no motivation or energy to do anything about it.

The only thing I have managed to do is finishing Our Flag Means Death, which I loved, especially season 2, and have started roleplaying from in the DWRP community here on the site along with my girlfriend. It's just really nice playing a mature, functional relationship (yes, we play Ed and Stede), compared to basically all the other shit modern media throws our way. It's the most fun I've had roleplaying in ages, and I'm just really clinging to it these days when nothing else seems to work.



Besides, I've been in a Lady of the Camellias mode the past couple of days, if my icon switch-around (lots of Kizzy Matiakis in my line-up now) isn't evidence enough. I really want to reread the book, at least in part and especially, I'm gathering my wits to rewatch the Paris Opera Ballet 2008 staging which is up in full on YouTube. Very good quality, too. I have it on DVD as well, but watching it online is easier. I don't know what it is about this story that makes me return to it, I've returned to it habitually the past ten years and it never tires me or bores me, especially not in the ballet version which is amazing.

I was gonna say that it's Marguerite as a character and while I love the lady, I have recently taken a shine to Armand as well, especially when danced well by great danseurs like Alexander Bozinoff, Andreas Kaas or Stéphane Bullion. I personally think Armand is a more interesting character in the ballet than in the book, his slightly different framework really helps define him in Neumeier's choreography, but even in the book he has moment where I think, even while finding him an idiot, I can sympathize with him greatly. We're all mistake-makers. His mistake just costs him more greatly than most of us have to pay up.



So, we'll see what I get or don't get done today. If I finally sit down and do my canon-review of the ballet or not. I've been up most of the night, so I'll also need a nap at some point before noon.

Sleep, at least during the day, I can do.