sunday.

[sunfright]

Not tonight, but maybe tomorrow, or after x-mas, I'll try writing some 'side stories' for Lest They Leave. I'd like to do a novella as seen from Charles', Armand's and Eloisa's points of view. I don't think I'm aiming for a full novel for each of them, but you never know for sure, so I'll start writing and see where it leads me this time.

Lest They Leave is out with its betas now and there's nothing more I can do about it. I even dread reading over the story now, should I find some grave error. Which I know is silly, because then I'd just correct it and live with any number of my betas noticing it, too.

But my ego is frail and the world is sharp-edged and hard, guys.



Still, I wanna get better, so this is the only way. Put myself out there for evaluation, judgement and critique. With people who're friendly, who mean well. But also people who want to see me be my very best. I try turning it over that way in my head.



Tomorrow I'm going to the library to turn in some overdue books. They're books I originally borrowed to prepare for Lest They Leave, so turning them in now when I've finally finished is kinda like a symbol of that process. It's been a timely one. They're two Fitzgerald books (in Danish) - I've put the English versions on my wishlish this year. Just for great justice.



And meanwhile - while we wait for beta feedback, so see me in three months, I guess - I've rediscovered my love for Postmodern Jukebox and am listening to covers like Young and Beautiful, Bad Romance, Good As Hell and Enjoy the Silence - as well as former PMJ singer, Robyn Adele Anderson's version of Beyonce's Crazy in Love, because they're all 20's inspired. Great songs all of them, too.



We had McD for dinner tonight, because K. hadn't had her hangover food yesterday. It was nice, being so easy.



I've just been really tired today and I know it's just a reaction to being done with a big project and x-mas drawing nearer and nearer, so I try to just... be in it, exist in that state of being. It's still three hours before I can go to bed.

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[sunfright]

I've worked with really, really good betas before and I know you can grow so much if you're open to their feedback, but this is the first time I've written anything resembling an actual novel and having the finished product looked at, when I don't even know whether it's readable, only that I really like it myself, is - as you say - terrifying.