thursday.

[sunfright]

Sometimes, writing-wise, the weirdest things happen to me.

Like, I had literally planned out this entire Marie Antoinette/du Barry fic down to chapter divisions and such - and then, last night when I sat up and couldn't sleep, a completely random fic idea hit me and I wrote it down in my notebook, but decided to keep focusing on the Marie Antoinette project. Then, when I sat down to do some note-archiving on my laptop, the words just... came to me and I opened up a blank Word document and wrote almost 400 words which is more than I have written in weeks. In one sitting. For that completely random idea that hit me last night. If this keeps up, I guess that's just what I'll have to go with, huh.

It's a fic for the ballet, Napoli. It's femslash. It's post-canon. It deals with grief and loss and bonding over that process.

And the narrator is very unlike my usual type which I think might be a good thing. I'm also, apparently, writing from a 1st person point of view which is something I even more rarely do in English, so this is all going to be very new and exciting.

Please keep me in your prayers, haha.



Listening to old 60's Italian music for reasons and feeling quite chipper.



Which is good, because the morning has been anxiety-ridden and slow, I was up on time, at least, but then slept between half past ten and noon. I've had a lot of anxiety the past week, it's the stuff with my parents, I know, classic reaction pattern from me, but I still haven't found the best way to cope besides distracting myself and pop sedatives now and then.

Tomorrow I'll be seeing my social worker for the first time since she went on vacation three weeks ago and we have some paperwork to do to renew my contract with them. So there'll be a lot of difficult questions and talking back and forth. But I do look forward to seeing her. Although I've done well enough for myself while she was gone, it also made me realise how quickly I slip from healthy routines into complete scatter-living.

Quickly.



I kinda want to share what I've written for this fanfic, but since it's for a challenge, I know I probably shouldn't. Instead you get my favourite online clip from the ballet, the pas de deux and ballabile from the first act (I know I've shared this before, but you're getting this until it sickens you). Alexandra Lo Sardo as Teresina, Alban Lendorf as Gennaro. Alba Nadal as Teresina's friend, Giovanina (dark red hue skirt, the girl in the middle of the first row) and a lot of future stars both among the fishermen and the Naples girls dancing. It's one big talent pool, really.

Watch on YouTube

I can share that my fic is going to be a Teresina/Giovanina femslash fic, because I am the femslash queen. And Gennaro isn't going to be in it, due to more reasons, so. I hope it works out, I'm pretty hooked on the idea.



How is everyone today? If you feel like it, give me a word and I'll write you a sentence either inspired by it or containing it. Warning that my sentences can get very long and run-on and poetic.



Happy Thursday!