friday.

I've been absent the past two months. Sorry to disappear without a word. Life got me and so did RP. I've spent the past six weeks living in a little cave inside my mind with my roleplay characters, distracting myself from the beginning of the year which always hits me hard. New Year is just never a kind transition for my mental health.

Some things are going well. I generally feel more energetic and hopeful than I have in the past many years around the same time of year. Disability has given me a lot of freedom to not feel so much pressure and anxiety about those aspects of my life, work and finances. But anxiety is still a big part of my problem, and family problems are only aggravating that.

Both my parents are turning 60 this year, so there will be big parties that I won't be attending, because I can't mentally stand many people. This is something my parents don't really understand and it's causing a lot of friction. More will probably follow about that the next couple of months.

My current fandom obsessions are Star Wars and Omina, my favourite poetry collection. I'm RP'ing an OC, placing him in the Star Wars universe, early days of the Empire, as well as playing the Amazon, the main character from the poems, in her own original universe. I had planned on writing Omina fanfic for International Fanworks Day, but ended up tagging all day instead, so oops. The fic idea is still very clear in my mind, though, so I'll probably write it at some point. Something prose poem-like, diary-style.

I haven't gotten started on Fannish Fifty yet, but I still very much plan on getting to it, will just have to post a bit more frequently than once a week to catch up. I think we're starting with La Sylphide, once I get going.

I hope everyone else is doing alright. I've been thinking about you.