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WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HAIR AND FUR
CAMELLIAS
MANONIQUE
EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD CRIES OVER MONEY
MELODIC
A FLORAL 1-3
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Looking through my old writing journal tonight, I found ten poems I wrote, inspired by The Lady of the Camellias, back in 2019 when the ballet was being performed in Copenhagen, where I went to see it twice. Sometimes, when rediscovering old writings I haven't shared, I feel a stark gratitude that I never did, but with these poems, I liked them enough to put them up regardless. They're very different in style, but the thematics are the same, naturally, inspired by the same thing. The "Camellias" one is trying to mimic the style of Sylvia Plath's "Tulips", though I won't ever try to pretend I can do Queen Plath justice. Anyway, thought I'd share here, since The Lady has been the theme for many things recently...
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I've definitely overexerted myself this weekend and am feeling the resultant lethargy now. I don't really have the mental capacity for much, so I might look at some old writings today or do some translations, rather than trying to write new stuff.
The damned thing about my disorder and my experience of it is this energy and desire I feel for being active and creative and those things, but how I have absolutely no leeway in terms of spoons. When there are no more spoons, they're gone and sometimes they're gone a couple of spoons before I thought they'd be.
Maybe it will get better, now that I have the free time to take my time, but I need to remind myself constantly that I'm still very, very worn out and I need to honour that. Always the same struggle.
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Thinking about maybe spending Monday trying to translate a poem I wrote for the book I self-published along with a friend some years ago. Just the title will be difficult to translate. In Danish, it is "Lykkegrøn", which means something like "The Green Colour of Happiness", but I might go with something a bit more brief and peppy. Like "Happy Green" or something... Hmm.
I have several of the texts in that collection in translation in my writing journal and might link them here, since I'm very proud of them. That book is an achievement I'll never stop being satisfied with. It was a long, hard, but fun process and the result is still solid, I think. Even years later.
I think RP will have to stay on standby for now. I just don't have the energy for it and every time I try, I feel stressed and tired, so not going to push myself on that account.
Not going to push myself at all. Only things that make me happy when they make me happy.